Trusting

I feel like I have done a terrible job of trusting- clinging to, confiding in, setting my hope on my Jesus lately. I don’t know why it’s been hard for me to trust in Him lately. He is the I AM, ever constant, faithful, my provider, my joy, strength, my salvation. Why is it so hard now to cry out to Him, NEED HIM, set my hope and confidence on Him? Why don’t I feel like I know Him anymore, like He is so far away? I feel like I have been looking for my worth in so many other things than in the ONE who created me and gives me worth simply because I am His creation, His child, His beloved. In my search for signifance, I’ve been let down by people, jobs, ministry, I’ve even let myself down so many times- this has caused a lot of inner anger, hurt, doubt, disappointment, bitterness, pride, the list goes on and on. I am glad my Savior is full of grace and mercy- that He loves me. I need healing. I need God. I want to trust Him again. I want to cling to Him. I want to lay down my burdens of the future, my health situation, insurance, finances, friends, ministry, church, my inner struggles and confide all these things to Him, and cling to Him as He carries me through this journey.

“Come to me all who are weary and I will give you rest” Jesus says. Matthew 11:28 Jesus, Savior, Friend, I’m coming. I am in need of rest.